Update:)

Me and tally found us a cute little apartment. Living with my dad and Kathy til I got my feet on the ground was VERY much appreciated... I have so much gratitude for my family I could scream! They are the best!!! But it is very nice to have our own space again. Tally probably apprecieates the comfort and stability of her own room again as much as I do:) I have been very blessed to be a single mom and still get to stay home with my babe! I couldn't ask for a better blessing. I still watch my little bro throughout the day and clean at nights (about 20 hrs a week) to earn some dough:) It's really nice, cause Tal can just come with me. So not only do I get to be a stay at home mom, my bestest little buddy gets to come to work with me:) She enjoys it as much as I do I think. She loves to dust:)
Me: I have had a run around tryin to adjust to what life has thrown at me, but I think I got it handled:) I am very happy. I went through some depression and hard times tryin to find myself again. And here I am! I am so excited for my future and the good things to come:) And so so grateful for trials and bumpy roads cause I have learned so so much about myself.... I have really learned to appreciate myself and what I have to offer this world. I ran into Russ Gardner the other day, outta the blue he came up and gave me a big hug, paused, looked at me and said,"U've got ur twinkle back in your eyes, u lost it for awhile girl, its very nice to see hun, I'm proud of ya." Those words meant more to me than any I can remember this past year!:) And it kinda reassured me that yes... yes I do:) The twinkle is most definitely back and my smiles are bigger than ever!!! Enough about me.....
Tally boo: (we call her that, cause she looked just like boo off of monsters inc:) Especially when she has pigtails:)) She is doin so great! I didn't realize how much change affects our little ones:( Since we have moved into our own place and rid away the stress and just lived our lives, she has slept through the night again and just enjoys life. Nothin makes me more happy than to be with her and giggle with her. Her smile makes me want to climb to any mountain top and scream how amazing and important she makes me feel! She is really the light of my life. I can't imagine my life without her. She is 22 months old now! Almost 2!! I can't even believe it!!!! She has turned into the sweetest, silliest, comforting little princess. She is full of kisses, loves, and of course attitude. All of which completes my days! She has been so so sick these last few days with the flu. It has just made my heart wrench! I have never dealt with her sick like this before. Although she has been quite a sport! No whining, no crying, all she needs is my hand on her bare tummy:) Poor little stinker. She is feelin better today though. 2 days ago I just cryed and cryed cause I felt so helpless that I couldn't take it all away from her:( Its crazy how much motherhood takes a toll on our emotions and makes u realize how much we take for granted having healthy kids. It almost hurts us more to see them sick than them actually feeling it!! She is getting some color back and plays a little more, so she should be better in no time!
All pictures in next post... beware! There is lots!!!

We are back and feelin better than ever!!!

For those of u that keep up with my blog.... I'm still alive!! I will be posting lots... I have a lot to catch up on!

Rambles :) & Talya blessings.

A LOT has changed in my life these past few months. I find myself lost a lot, as far as which direction to take next. But for now, I am bumming at my parents, looking for a job in the valley and in Logan, and being SOOO grateful for my family because I really COULD NOT do it without them right now. They have done so much for me AND more, I don't thank them enough! I also have amazing friends that keep me smiling and laughing through all these difficult times! I wouldn't trade you guys for the world!!! I lost myself a little through the last few years, and I am finally at peace that I have found me again. I feel like laughing all the time, I feel comfortable in my own skin, and from this day forward I will not change for ANYONE! I am me :) And if you can't appreciate me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best! :)

Princess Talya blesses me in so many ways.....

* She makes me laugh at least 100 times a day.

* She wakes me up at 7:00am everyday just to lay in my bed and cuddle me. :) I LOVE cuddles.

* I always feel needed. Cause she really does need me. :) Who doesn't love to be needed?

* She has a smile and the personality that lifts me right back up whenever I start to fall.

* God could not have blessed me more in any other way, but to send me her. :) And I try to thank him everyday!:)

* She trully is my rock... she keeps my feet on the ground whenever I feel like flying, she is my eyes when I don't feel like I can see clearly, and she is my strength whenever I feel a little like giving up when life gets a little hard. I sometimes wonder how I got so lucky to be givin such an angel:)

This is the month to be thankful, and I'm digging deeper into my gratitude this year than ever before. I guess it takes losing almost everything, and maybe a little growing up to really appreciate the good, and give thanks to the special people in my life that have stuck by my side and supported me through thick and thin.

Enjoy a few recent pictures of my little love bug:) (Although, she is no longer very little.)

Oh yes, and her not so glorious photo:( This was a result of a slippery tub and clumsy Tal. Poor girl... I swear she has a big bottle of "barley pop" hidden somewhere that she sips on when I'm not looking...... cause she NEVER seems to have any kind of balance on her cute little feet! She definitely keeps me on my toes, and my heart racing all day long.

Halloween!

We had a fun Halloween. Me and Tal were both pirates. We dressed up and went to a few houses... and by then Tal HAD it! She was so tired and onery. So she came home and hung out with granny and grandpa while I went out with my friends. It was loads of fun (maybe too much fun.) :) I seriously have the best friends and family in the entire world, I'm very lucky! Hope everyone else had an awesome Halloween!

Sad sad morning.

My grandpa lost his battle with cancer this morning. I can't sleep. I have known it was coming for about a week now, but I don't think anything can really prepare you for this. He was an AMAZING man. A lot of my childhood was spent at him and my grandmas house in Idaho. Although; I do feel really really lucky. Not very often do you get to hug, kiss, and tell your loved ones goodbye before they pass. Him and my grandma had a love like I have never ever seen. I'm gonna miss him so so much.

We are back!!!

I really missed the blogging world. Life has been so crazy I just haven't had time for it. But yes we are still alive. Tal is 16 months old now!!!! And she is happier than ever, and makes me smile so much! And I am just trying find a job, and figure out which direction to take in life! I have lots to catch up on so make sure you check back often :)

Yep.... Tal is still a smiley ham. And an even cuter stinker! (hehe) This is actually Hazen's Halloween costume. Me and Tal are gonna be pirates!!